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i'm debating whether or not to sign up for the graduate reading series at my school. a couple months ago, i maybe would have snapped up the opportunity...but now...since i'm kinda going thru a crisis of faith about my writing...and i don't even know if my writing sample will be accepted...i just don't think i can sign up. maybe if my sample had already been accepted, and i would somehow be...i dunno...validated by my university professors, i would feel more confident getting up in front of people. besides it's a long time slot, and i don't have enough decent stuff to fill it. blarg. it would be nice to have my name on a poster tho, and a good edition, possibly to my vita, but i dunno, i still can't bring myself to sign up. oh well. debate over, i guess...