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Nov. 28th, 2002 10:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
karenorthe rain has begun...its very light, but rain nonetheless....it's supposed to rain thru saturday, but forecasts are never right...
i only pray that it does, because that means no workers next door and then maybe i can get some work done...but not bloody likely with this weekend from hell with everyone making demands on my time. i just want peace and quiet, my papers to magicly finish themselves and a nice sushi dinner at the end of it all. is that too much to ask?
Noah is totally walking now unaided, just in time to show off for his first birthday party on sunday...he still falls on his face a lot, which is funny when it's on carpet...it won't be so funny here with limestone or hardwood floors...my parents didn't think of that in their remodeling....they wanted the place to look nice for his bris, nevermind when he gets old enough to walk...silly parents...
thanksgiving was pretty suckastic. my brother's mother-in-law literally tells the same three stories over and over and over again, even tho she knows bloody well we know the stories already. ugh. it was too hot, and my other brother took delight in embarassing my mom (not in a joking way)...we don't take him places much. he's got the social graces of a rodent. and not the cute kinds like mousies.
my friend that's pregnant. i'm killing myself with worry over her. her doctor's appt. isn't for over two weeks, that is she hasn't and will not see a doctor at all till then. and i'm afraid she might have some complications already...or at least what she's told me is one of the things you're supposed to see a doctor over...i don't wanna gross out anyone. but i know how bad she wants this baby...if anything should happen. god. keep thinking good thoughts. as weird as it sounds, i prayed for her to conceive this baby and i still pray for its health. she is just the kinda girl who deserves a child.
i don't pray for much, i'm not a god freak, believe you me. i don't even know what i actually believe, but i figure it can't hurt to throw my selfless wants out into the cosmos...right?
i'm freaking out in earnest about my future...my fastly approaching state of unemployment and postbaccaloureate (sp?) status. my brother says that i should find something in entertainment research...fact checking and/or looking up for tv, i guess. it sounds interesting, but i have no idea how to get a job like that. moreover i need a job that will let me leave early once or twice a week for grad school. my dad, who has no real conception of actual salaries is shocked that i'm only looking to make 30-35k. he thinks you can make that working at mcdonalds....god is he warped. it would be enough for me to support myself, especially if i can still swing my parents paying for my school and my health insurance (and hopefully car insurance). but with rent prices here so high, it will be tight even with that. and there are no guarantees i'll make half that. i wish i could just have enough money to go to school, live on my own and not work. why oh why was i not born to gazillionares???
i have a cold still. its annoying as all hell, cuz i'm trying desparately to keep it at bay, and i guess i'm succeeding, but in that it stays in the mega annoying status, cuz its not enough to take me down entirely, but i still feel like crap constantly and am sooo tired all the time. bad time for me to get sick. bad bad bad.
nuf rambling...i should get a decent nights rest so that i can wake early and work all day tomorrow, right!?! shah... i'll try.
the rain stopped. pussy rain. damn. why can't i control the freakin weather!
i only pray that it does, because that means no workers next door and then maybe i can get some work done...but not bloody likely with this weekend from hell with everyone making demands on my time. i just want peace and quiet, my papers to magicly finish themselves and a nice sushi dinner at the end of it all. is that too much to ask?
Noah is totally walking now unaided, just in time to show off for his first birthday party on sunday...he still falls on his face a lot, which is funny when it's on carpet...it won't be so funny here with limestone or hardwood floors...my parents didn't think of that in their remodeling....they wanted the place to look nice for his bris, nevermind when he gets old enough to walk...silly parents...
thanksgiving was pretty suckastic. my brother's mother-in-law literally tells the same three stories over and over and over again, even tho she knows bloody well we know the stories already. ugh. it was too hot, and my other brother took delight in embarassing my mom (not in a joking way)...we don't take him places much. he's got the social graces of a rodent. and not the cute kinds like mousies.
my friend that's pregnant. i'm killing myself with worry over her. her doctor's appt. isn't for over two weeks, that is she hasn't and will not see a doctor at all till then. and i'm afraid she might have some complications already...or at least what she's told me is one of the things you're supposed to see a doctor over...i don't wanna gross out anyone. but i know how bad she wants this baby...if anything should happen. god. keep thinking good thoughts. as weird as it sounds, i prayed for her to conceive this baby and i still pray for its health. she is just the kinda girl who deserves a child.
i don't pray for much, i'm not a god freak, believe you me. i don't even know what i actually believe, but i figure it can't hurt to throw my selfless wants out into the cosmos...right?
i'm freaking out in earnest about my future...my fastly approaching state of unemployment and postbaccaloureate (sp?) status. my brother says that i should find something in entertainment research...fact checking and/or looking up for tv, i guess. it sounds interesting, but i have no idea how to get a job like that. moreover i need a job that will let me leave early once or twice a week for grad school. my dad, who has no real conception of actual salaries is shocked that i'm only looking to make 30-35k. he thinks you can make that working at mcdonalds....god is he warped. it would be enough for me to support myself, especially if i can still swing my parents paying for my school and my health insurance (and hopefully car insurance). but with rent prices here so high, it will be tight even with that. and there are no guarantees i'll make half that. i wish i could just have enough money to go to school, live on my own and not work. why oh why was i not born to gazillionares???
i have a cold still. its annoying as all hell, cuz i'm trying desparately to keep it at bay, and i guess i'm succeeding, but in that it stays in the mega annoying status, cuz its not enough to take me down entirely, but i still feel like crap constantly and am sooo tired all the time. bad time for me to get sick. bad bad bad.
nuf rambling...i should get a decent nights rest so that i can wake early and work all day tomorrow, right!?! shah... i'll try.
the rain stopped. pussy rain. damn. why can't i control the freakin weather!
