I don't wanna DO this anymore!

I am so freakin SICK of theory. i can't take it. aaaaarrrgh. i worked from 10:30 am till about 5pm and then again from 6-7. Now I've been working today from like 10...and all i have is 2 and a half pages. i'm done talking about hegel, now to start on nietzsche. but i SOO don't care. and i don't wanna do anymore research.

and i STILL have 3.5 more theory journals to write. all by tomorrow. i could cry. but what i really want to do, is nap.

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hmm...i'm on the fifth page of my paper and i'm only halfway through Nietzsche.. this really blows.

hmmm, i was supposed to be invited to an antiantiwar demonstration today. but i never received the email from the coordinator. not like i woulda gone anyway with all this school stuff going on. but i mighta told my brother to go.

it will be interesting what happens in the world tomorrow. it's about time something happened anyway...sigh...

you know what. i love england. they are (and in this i mean tony blair and his supporters) willing to stand up, against enormous (and might i add often ridiculous and hypocritical) opposition, for what they believe is right...

anyway. just ranting a little...

have to finish paper from hell.

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so these papers may be the end to my career as a graduate student. they are MAYBE 'c' work for an undergrad, not anywhere near A or B for a graduate. It makes me sad because it will totally disappoint my professor who last semester wrote to me that i had written the 'best paper in the class' and one of the best he'd read all semester. but this was an undergrad lit class, not a grad theory class. oy.

but i don't care. they're done. i'm gonna proof tomorrow, i'm not even gonna look at them again till tomorrow...

i'm disppointed in myself, more than anything. it was VERY difficult for me to write these. it took me 2 full days for each, and i still came out with crap that was nearly entirely quotes. ugh.

i still have to write those theory journal entries. i should try to get two done at least before bed.