on the ba DW S4 spoiler

[karenor]

My tummy is all in knots. I don't want this to end badly. I don't want to be hurt. I know it's just a show y'all, but it's my heart.

I'm torn between wanting to know more and not wanting to know anything. If you know me, you know I'm spoiler-phobic to the extreme. I'd be right happy to not even know Catherine Tate was the companion for series 4. Fandom means a lot to me, and that's why I can't stay away. There's just no way to not know the big things and still continue to discuss and read fic and all that.

But for this? As much as i do not want to know anything specific about the plot, i need to know that I won't be destroyed by it. I can be satisfied with just a small appearance. I swear, I can. I AM pleased she's coming back and all. But...but...they CAN'T let it be devestatingly sad? Right? RTD wouldn't do that. Not again. Not after all his talk about how much more fun S4 is going to be. And that has me even a bit more worried. That the reunion (IF in fact this will be any such thing) will be handled a might too flippantly).

I don't want her to be just an image. Or a future or past Rose. I want this to be just right. Which I know it won't be and there will be much crying.

How am I supposed to survive a 7 month long sustained freak attack???