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[karenor]

i'm tentatively deciding to become a full time graduate student (more than full time, actually). i'm gonna try taking four classes and not working. i have my parents approval and support...it's just i don't wanna live at home. and if i don't have a job, that's just where i'm staying. i applied for the dorms (i haven't told my parents this) and if i get in (which like 90% i won't) i'm gonna have to convince them to pay for it, but that would be the ideal situation. i could be like a real student. like i've always dreamt. sigh... i don't know if i can handle it tho, just the classes. i would, in theory, be taking Studies in the English Language (which i think is a lit thing, not a language thing), Midieval Lit, Seminar in Poetry writing, and critical approaches to literature. all but one teacher i've had before and they love me. Tho for the critical class, (the same teacher that gave me glowing reviews on my paper) is SUPER hard. i don't know if i can deal with him on the graduate level. i don't know if i can deal with ANY of this on the graduate level. my schedule will be monday nights, 7-10, wednesday 4-7, and thursday, 2 classes, 4-10.

am i asking for death? it sounds like a whole goddamn lot even with no job. oh how i covet a solo dorm room. they're apt. style, private bath, kitchen the whole deal. and way cheaper than an apt. didn't used to be that way before apt. prices skyrocketed...so i've never wanted to be in the dorms before. even if i get in, fo sho i'll have a roomate, prolly...

all this before i know even if i've been admitted to the graduate program. hee. i have to call and check on all that tomorrow, considering my registration date right now is monday. also i haven't paid tuition cuz i'm supposed to have some sort of tentative aid that is to be reexamined when my postbaccalaureatte status is determined or something. so i am really all up in the air with this school nonsense.

so yeah. oy.

Comments

[alannahrose.livejournal.com]

Good luck with all of that, sweetie. I'll be thinking of you and hoping you get accepted into the dorms and graduate program. I know you can do it! Happy thoughts, happy thoughts. :)

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[karenor.livejournal.com]

thanks for the thoughts, i need them. the dorm is not bloody likely. if i thought i'd be in this position a year ago and applied then, then i might have a chance. but maybe i'll get lucky somehow. if i don't get outta here, attempting 4 graduate classes might not go so well...we'll see.